Monday, April 20, 2009

One day at a time

A friend so profoundly reminded me today that joy comes in the simple things. I think I forget that alot. Sometimes it's so easy to focus on what's going wrong, what's not good enough, whatever... it kind of gets exhausting. Life is good. The world is beautiful. I have a family. I have friends. What more do I need?

Friday, April 17, 2009

just the beginning

I feel like I fail the blogging world because my life is not exciting enough to hold people's interest while reading my blog haha. There's nothing new or fun to tell and while I could make up some crazy crap to entertain you all, I'd rather not. Life is just life right now. I'm still looking for a job, well I need to start looking for a job, and I'm still stuck on Hawaii time so I'm up half the night and still asleep through half the day... Not the most productive sleeping schedule. The weather is actually nice today and I might just take a trip to my favorite place on earth. I'm out.

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Home at Last

I'm home finally. It was a really long flight home and I'm dead so we'll see if I put another post up today or not. This is a monumental time for me, I'm finally home so I had to blog about it.

Friday, April 10, 2009

Change sucks

So emotions are running crazy right now. I'm kinda freaking out about leaving, I didn't realize I'd miss it this much. Everything is in suitcases and ready to go, except for me. I'm not sure why I'm afraid to leave or why its so emotional but I realized last night that this is somewhat a pivotal moment in my life. Before life had its complicated moments but over all life was simple. I went to school with the same people every day and the school year would end but I always knew I'd go back to school the following year and see the exact same people there. I had my set routine, school, dance, homework, sleep, and I did that everyday. Home was home, it was where I belonged and where I felt most normal but I realized that instead of consistency being the normal and change being the exception, it's flipped around with change being the normal and consistency the exception. Life is changing so much everyday, I'm not going home to the home I always perceived. I'm not going back to high school, to dance, to the same routine I did for years. I'm going home only to move out in another couple of months. After school is marriage and then children and a career... The only consistent thing is change. It's made me appreciate the small things in life that have never changed: family, good friends, my ability to dance, etc. Sometimes I just wish more things remained consistent...

Thursday, April 9, 2009

Sad Goodbyes

So the time is nearing for me to move off campus. Most of my room is packed up and ready to go and as I packed everything I couldn't help but cry. No matter how hard or crappy the last 8-9 months have been all I can remember when I look back are the good times. The countless hours in the library with my good buddy Dustin writing essay after essay and studying my guts out. The killer trips into Kaneohe almost every weekend and the sometimes odd bus rides that accompanied them. Mundane trips to Foodland, not because we needed something but because there was absolutely nothing else to do. Classes skipped to go bum around at the beach (actually I only did that once and I felt guilty the whole time haha) Masa's comments that sounded Japanese and everyone's obvious laughter over it. Walking the beach at night, wondering how the heck I was so blessed to be where I am. Waiting an hour or longer for the bus and getting stuck in the rain. Laughing at people's faces as they looked in disgust at the caf food. Ordering pizza every freakin night for 4 nights in a row just cuz my roomie felt like it. Watching innumerable hours of Grey's Anatomy even though there were so many more important things to be done. Getting locked out of the room after getting out of the shower... The last 9 months have been a huge blessing in my life and I wouldn't trade one memory, good or bad, for the world. Aloha 'oe BYU- Hawaii

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

still waiting

6 more days and I'm home... I'm pretty sure these 6 days will be the longest of my life. But on a more positive note, finals are basically over! Ok, well technically I have a dance final tomorrow, but really since when has dance been considered a burden to me? (well besides drill) Speaking of dancing, I've been going crazy lately cuz I'm so anxious to get back in the studio and dance my guts out. It's unhealthy how much I miss it. Good thing I'll be home in 6 days.... Ugh 6 days.

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

My Last Moments in Paradise

I have a week left here in Hawaii. Moving here 9 months ago was one of the hardest things I've ever done, moving away from home and my family and friends. But as I look back and think about everything that's happened I realize that although it was hard and a lot of the time it sucked, I wouldn't have wanted to spend the last 9 months any other way. I've learned things about myself that I couldn't have learned at home, being in my comfort zone, surrounded by people that know me inside and out. In a short time I've met people that have touched my life and I've touched others lives. I've learned to stand on my own and make a good impression in everything I do because life is short and people move on and what they see for that short time is what they'll remember forever.