waiting

life is good for the most part... not too much to complain about, however, i always get the feeling that i'm waiting for something. i'm waiting for someone to be here, i'm waiting for something good to happen, i'm always waiting. what a waste of life right? right. i think i struggle with appreciating what i have in the moment. this whole waiting business has me in the mind set that there is something better coming along, but what if what i have right now is the best i just don't realize it because i'm too stupid to stop waiting. how do i fix this problem? good question, i have no idea. i could start by looking around and realizing that life is good. people i love surround me. i have an amazing bed in an amazing house that i come home to every night. i need to learn to tell the people i love that i love them now. i need to stop waiting and embrace my world the way it is because i doubt it can get any better than this.

Life as of lately

I've failed as a blogger. Life gets hectic and quite honestly this has been the last thing on my mind. Update: Portland last weekend. Among the best weekends of my life. I figured out that I'm secretly meant to live in the Pacific Northwest. My heart yearns for the green moss and the thriving night life of downtown Portland haha. In all seriousness though, it's definitely somewhere I would move to in a heartbeat.