a bit of philosophy

"to be great is to be misunderstood" - this quote given by Ralph Waldo Emerson (in his essay Self Reliance) has always interested me. what does it mean? is he really saying what he means or as all good writers do, has he left it to the readers own interpretation? personallly, i think it's the latter. is he referring to the greats of his time? the initial interpretation of this quote puts in my mind thoughts of albert einstein or men/women like him whose intelligence made them misunderstood because their intelligence reached a level that few truly understood. but when put in context the quote takes on a whole new meaning that i never before saw. Emerson's essay Self Reliance encourages confidence and strength to know who you and and then live who you are. as life experience has taught me, my greatest qualities have been discovered in times when i feel alone and misunderstood. "great" has limitless definitions, it is not confined to only those who are smart, talented, wonderful, perfect, etc... i think emerson puts this on an individual level. sometimes you will be misunderstood for what you are great at. "great" qualities emerge in misunderstanding, self reliance is achieved through great qualities. so in my mind the quote is just as true if changed to: "to be misunderstood is to be great".

just a little late...

I'm fully aware that Thanksgiving was a week and a half ago but I'm just now getting around to blogging about it so... deal with it ha. My Thanksgiving was wonderful, despite being on crutches and painkillers. I got to spend the day with the people I love most and I got to eat a lot haha. I love that holiday... I'm one of those people that has a hard time recognizing the blessings in my life so when there is a day to force me to recognize those I like it. The thing that has occured most to me as I think about my blessings is that the Lord will never ask us to do something without giving us the strength and things necessary to achieve it. Now this may seem like an obvious principle to everyone but it's something that I really realized just recently. Everything I have in my life has been placed here to help me with whatever I've been asked to accomplish. I just want to thank everyone who has helped me throughout my life, I love you and I may not show it all the time but I'm really grateful for you and what you do for me :) I hope everyones Thanksgiving was as good as mine.

P.S. I love you Duke :)

i'm loving the freakishly lovely weather

as the title indicates, i'm loving this freakishly lovely weather. i'm not sure the last time it was this warm this time of year. anyhoo, here are some things i learned over the weekend...
1) little kids in halloween costumes are way too cute
2) people in scary movies are retarded
3) michael jackson is a little weird... but over all a cool guy
4) knee injuries are the worst
5) sushi is my happy food
6) leg braces may suck but there's a reason why i'm adviced to wear one
7) rooms don't clean themselves
8) life isn't fair
9) laughter really can be a cure for anything, especially self pity moods
10) i REALLY want a pug puppy
11) being victoria beckham is not easy (or comfortable)
and that my friends, is what i learned this weekend.

i'm back

a good friend of mine reminded me that i do have a blog and i should probably update it because as surprising as this is people actually care to look at my blog haha. i'm not sure what to say cuz like always my life is monotonous and nothing new and exciting comes my way. the year is flying by and it blows my mind to think that in a week from today it will be November... Where the heck does time go?? This fall is as beautiful as ever. that's one thing i missed so much in hawaii, the changing of seasons. i never realized how much happiness the changing of colors from green to red, yellow, orange, etc. made me until i didn't have it. I also never realized how much i grew to love hawaii and everything about it, including the floods and random downpours of rain haha. if there's one thing i would change it would be my ability to appreciate things in the moment. take in everything for what its worth and just love it then and there, not after its already gone. i miss hawaii, tremendously. it has claimed the title of the best 9 months of my life so far. i sure am lucky... :D i'm sure it'll be another couple months before you all hear from me again because i often forget to blog but hopefully i won't be so forgetful.

whoops

so i pretty much suck at blogging, it's been like 2 months since i've even looked at my blog. life threw some unexpected things at me within the last couple months and its funny to stop and realize that where i am now is not at all where i thought i would be at this point in my life. i go where the wind takes me and enjoy the ride. anyways, other than massage school there's really not anything new in my life. the unpredictability of life is what makes it worth living, at least thats what i think...

waiting

life is good for the most part... not too much to complain about, however, i always get the feeling that i'm waiting for something. i'm waiting for someone to be here, i'm waiting for something good to happen, i'm always waiting. what a waste of life right? right. i think i struggle with appreciating what i have in the moment. this whole waiting business has me in the mind set that there is something better coming along, but what if what i have right now is the best i just don't realize it because i'm too stupid to stop waiting. how do i fix this problem? good question, i have no idea. i could start by looking around and realizing that life is good. people i love surround me. i have an amazing bed in an amazing house that i come home to every night. i need to learn to tell the people i love that i love them now. i need to stop waiting and embrace my world the way it is because i doubt it can get any better than this.

Life as of lately

I've failed as a blogger. Life gets hectic and quite honestly this has been the last thing on my mind. Update: Portland last weekend. Among the best weekends of my life. I figured out that I'm secretly meant to live in the Pacific Northwest. My heart yearns for the green moss and the thriving night life of downtown Portland haha. In all seriousness though, it's definitely somewhere I would move to in a heartbeat.